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....and it isn't easy. I got that Nicoderm CQ patch yesterday from the drug store, smoked my last cigarette yesterday around noon or so, put this patch on, and haven't had one since. Anyone that really knows me well knows that I usually don't go more than an hour without a cigarette. I really want one, but instead I am eating a bunch of cinnimon disks. Seems to be working pretty good.
Whole reason why I think it is a good time to quit isn't because I care about second hand smoke or heart trouble, but more or less my own physical appearance. Before I started smoking, O weighed well over 215, benched 235, and could hold my breath for almost 2 minutes. That was 9 years ago. I now weigh 172, can't bench more than 135 without struggling, and can't hold my breath for more than a minute. I used to swim alot, and I don't even think I could do a few laps now without stopping and really catching my breath. I'm fed up with it. My body looks like s*** warmed over.
My friend who is trying to get onto the AFL and maybe the NFL as a strong safety has begun starting to really work out hard again. I really want to join him on his workouts, but the amount that I did smoke before it was almost impossible to keep up with him, and I really hate it. I need to look a little better than I do now. Seems like everytime I did have a cig I got real tired, never had the energy to do anything. Since I haven't had a cig, I have felt like punching walls for the fun of it, or chaining up the car and tugging it around the block (I have done that before I smoked) because I have all this energy that I haven't had in a very long time. But I have also gotten real damn jittery. I can't seem to sit still for any amount of time. Just typing all this out seemed to take about 45 minutes.
I have also had to give up on a few things I like to do because of quitting, things I could go back to doing later, but things I can't do now, like for instance, poker. I can't play. Everytime I go play, I play around people that are smoking CONSTANTLY, and when I lose, I get pissed, and need a cig to calm down. So I have had to give up on it for a few weeks. Another thing is going to the bar. Again, being around all those people that smoke doesn't help any at all. The worst is not going to my dads as often, which I really REALLY hate. Everyone there smokes, and I can't be around them if they are going to do it around me.
I guess I am asking this board for a little support. I really can't ask anyone else for this, because they all smoke, and have better things to do. I am also asking you to bear with me a little, I will have an overwhelming tendency to get a little more pissed off than usual.
Thanks for reading.
Wes
Whole reason why I think it is a good time to quit isn't because I care about second hand smoke or heart trouble, but more or less my own physical appearance. Before I started smoking, O weighed well over 215, benched 235, and could hold my breath for almost 2 minutes. That was 9 years ago. I now weigh 172, can't bench more than 135 without struggling, and can't hold my breath for more than a minute. I used to swim alot, and I don't even think I could do a few laps now without stopping and really catching my breath. I'm fed up with it. My body looks like s*** warmed over.
My friend who is trying to get onto the AFL and maybe the NFL as a strong safety has begun starting to really work out hard again. I really want to join him on his workouts, but the amount that I did smoke before it was almost impossible to keep up with him, and I really hate it. I need to look a little better than I do now. Seems like everytime I did have a cig I got real tired, never had the energy to do anything. Since I haven't had a cig, I have felt like punching walls for the fun of it, or chaining up the car and tugging it around the block (I have done that before I smoked) because I have all this energy that I haven't had in a very long time. But I have also gotten real damn jittery. I can't seem to sit still for any amount of time. Just typing all this out seemed to take about 45 minutes.
I have also had to give up on a few things I like to do because of quitting, things I could go back to doing later, but things I can't do now, like for instance, poker. I can't play. Everytime I go play, I play around people that are smoking CONSTANTLY, and when I lose, I get pissed, and need a cig to calm down. So I have had to give up on it for a few weeks. Another thing is going to the bar. Again, being around all those people that smoke doesn't help any at all. The worst is not going to my dads as often, which I really REALLY hate. Everyone there smokes, and I can't be around them if they are going to do it around me.
I guess I am asking this board for a little support. I really can't ask anyone else for this, because they all smoke, and have better things to do. I am also asking you to bear with me a little, I will have an overwhelming tendency to get a little more pissed off than usual.
Thanks for reading.
Wes
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