I'm usually a really happy go lucky, optimisitic realist.
But lately everything sucks, and I don't know why I'm having such problems getting out of my funk. I think mainly the reasons I'm down is I haven't had much of a social life.
My job is great, and am constantly getting praised by higher ups, and I should even break 6 figures this year. My work has been the only thing keeping me going. I'm good at it, I get respect, so it's all I do. The only negative of the job is it keeps me away from home. And while I'm a very sociable person it's hard to make any friends when you don't work/school with or have any other envolvement with anyone your age. The other guys I work with are all older family type people, no one to hang out with.
Usually I get home for a weekend every 2 weeks or so. But all I do is hang out with my girlfriend. All of my other friends have moved out of state for one reason or another. I only have 1 close friend left in my hometown (technically 2 but she is leaving in a few weeks)
I also gave up my apartment in hometown, last weekend. The GF is moving back home to work over summer to save up for grad school at Ohio State, so I figured there was no reason to keep the apartment, since I might be there one weekend out of the month. I think the realization that I have no home - literally - I live in a hotel that the company I work for pays for it. Well that adds to it a bit I think.
I think everyone has ups and downs, but I seem to have gotten stuck at the bottom somehow.
At least I have neptune (my dog) to keep me company. He loves me - probably only because he knows I'm the one who brings him his food.
But lately everything sucks, and I don't know why I'm having such problems getting out of my funk. I think mainly the reasons I'm down is I haven't had much of a social life.
My job is great, and am constantly getting praised by higher ups, and I should even break 6 figures this year. My work has been the only thing keeping me going. I'm good at it, I get respect, so it's all I do. The only negative of the job is it keeps me away from home. And while I'm a very sociable person it's hard to make any friends when you don't work/school with or have any other envolvement with anyone your age. The other guys I work with are all older family type people, no one to hang out with.
Usually I get home for a weekend every 2 weeks or so. But all I do is hang out with my girlfriend. All of my other friends have moved out of state for one reason or another. I only have 1 close friend left in my hometown (technically 2 but she is leaving in a few weeks)
I also gave up my apartment in hometown, last weekend. The GF is moving back home to work over summer to save up for grad school at Ohio State, so I figured there was no reason to keep the apartment, since I might be there one weekend out of the month. I think the realization that I have no home - literally - I live in a hotel that the company I work for pays for it. Well that adds to it a bit I think.
I think everyone has ups and downs, but I seem to have gotten stuck at the bottom somehow.
At least I have neptune (my dog) to keep me company. He loves me - probably only because he knows I'm the one who brings him his food.
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