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Ok, so I know this will get deleted since the original thread got deleted.... but maybe I can reach a few of you uneducated people before it gets deleted. Hey mods and admins.... you should just lock this maybe and not delete it. I think some of your board members need to be educated.
So obviously this is about the thread someone made about cutting. A friend of mine is a member of this board and told me about the thread because he knows that I am a cutter. I think you could ALL use some perspective... even the people who didn't make offensive and out of line statements.
I have been a cutter on and off since I was 11. I am now 21. I have been in and out of therapy since I was about 11 as well. No, this is not some 'teenage fad.' Before I get too far I might as well tell you that I am a psychology major and I know what I am talking about due to person history of my own, my friends, and the education I am receiving so I can one day help myself and people like me.
Cutting is not just limited to girls. There are plenty of men who do this too.
Cutting is not just teenagers. It is children (unfortunately yes, children are doing this too) and adults as well.
Cutting is NOT an attempt at suicide. Never once have I dragged a knife across my skin hoping to die. No cutter I ever met has hoped for death.
One of you said that the world would be better off without cutters and we should all be killed. Me cutting myself doesn't effect YOU or anyone else in ANY way. You also said that comparing it to smokers is dumb. I disagree. My smoking hurts you. If you choose not to smoke, my second hand smoke can kill you. If you choose not to cut, my cutting cannot harm you in any way. Ask my friends. I don't try to cut them, lol.
You also said someone should offer a solution, or that education might help. There is no solution. Is there a solution to suicide? No. If you see warning signs in a friend or family member you can try to help, but that's it. Just like my friends who know what I do try to help. When they know I am upset they will take me for a drive to talk and chill out where I have no sharp objects within reach. Did you notice the part where I mentioned being in therapy on and off for 10 years? Yea, there is no solution. Just like there is no solution to depression, alcoholism, or anything else like that. There is help, there is no cure.
Cutting is also NOT just for attention. Yes, maybe some people do it for attention, but not all. I try desperately to hide my scars and my actions. My family still doesn't know. Only about 3 or 4 of my friends know. It's much easier to hide than some of you think. One of your best friends could be a cutter and you could have no clue. I know my bst friends had no idea until I told them.
Sometimes I try to write as an outlet instead of cutting. My writing isn't great, but that's not my point. I wrote a poem that might help give you people a little more insight.
I Lie
It’s just a scrape
My cat has sharp claws
I burned it on accident
Can he see the truth in my eyes?
Does she know what lies behind this smile?
Do they suspect what I did?
I took the knife across my skin
With every stroke the panic grows
The skin breaks
The blood rushes
So does relief
With every stroke the panic subsides
I bleed to live, just to get by
No one can see why I do these things
They won’t understand
So I lie
I can't speak for every cutter, but I know the way I feel and the way one of my best friends feels who is also a cutter. And no, we didnt pick it up from each other. We were both doing it long before we even met. I don't do this for attention, or for death. I do it because sometimes it's the only thing that can calm me down. Sometimes I need to feel physical pain to distract from the emotional. Sometimes I need to see the blood. To feel alive. It may not make sense to you. It doesn't make sense to most people unless they are or have been a cutter or were good friends with a cutter and tried to understand it because of that.
So maybe you should all keep your minds a little more open in the future and not judge so quickly when you have no idea what you are talking about.
I am sure this thread will be gone soon, so if anyone feels the need to take this further, let me know. I'm a big girl. I can handle my own without whining to mods and admins to lock and delete threads.
So obviously this is about the thread someone made about cutting. A friend of mine is a member of this board and told me about the thread because he knows that I am a cutter. I think you could ALL use some perspective... even the people who didn't make offensive and out of line statements.
I have been a cutter on and off since I was 11. I am now 21. I have been in and out of therapy since I was about 11 as well. No, this is not some 'teenage fad.' Before I get too far I might as well tell you that I am a psychology major and I know what I am talking about due to person history of my own, my friends, and the education I am receiving so I can one day help myself and people like me.
Cutting is not just limited to girls. There are plenty of men who do this too.
Cutting is not just teenagers. It is children (unfortunately yes, children are doing this too) and adults as well.
Cutting is NOT an attempt at suicide. Never once have I dragged a knife across my skin hoping to die. No cutter I ever met has hoped for death.
One of you said that the world would be better off without cutters and we should all be killed. Me cutting myself doesn't effect YOU or anyone else in ANY way. You also said that comparing it to smokers is dumb. I disagree. My smoking hurts you. If you choose not to smoke, my second hand smoke can kill you. If you choose not to cut, my cutting cannot harm you in any way. Ask my friends. I don't try to cut them, lol.
You also said someone should offer a solution, or that education might help. There is no solution. Is there a solution to suicide? No. If you see warning signs in a friend or family member you can try to help, but that's it. Just like my friends who know what I do try to help. When they know I am upset they will take me for a drive to talk and chill out where I have no sharp objects within reach. Did you notice the part where I mentioned being in therapy on and off for 10 years? Yea, there is no solution. Just like there is no solution to depression, alcoholism, or anything else like that. There is help, there is no cure.
Cutting is also NOT just for attention. Yes, maybe some people do it for attention, but not all. I try desperately to hide my scars and my actions. My family still doesn't know. Only about 3 or 4 of my friends know. It's much easier to hide than some of you think. One of your best friends could be a cutter and you could have no clue. I know my bst friends had no idea until I told them.
Sometimes I try to write as an outlet instead of cutting. My writing isn't great, but that's not my point. I wrote a poem that might help give you people a little more insight.
I Lie
It’s just a scrape
My cat has sharp claws
I burned it on accident
Can he see the truth in my eyes?
Does she know what lies behind this smile?
Do they suspect what I did?
I took the knife across my skin
With every stroke the panic grows
The skin breaks
The blood rushes
So does relief
With every stroke the panic subsides
I bleed to live, just to get by
No one can see why I do these things
They won’t understand
So I lie
I can't speak for every cutter, but I know the way I feel and the way one of my best friends feels who is also a cutter. And no, we didnt pick it up from each other. We were both doing it long before we even met. I don't do this for attention, or for death. I do it because sometimes it's the only thing that can calm me down. Sometimes I need to feel physical pain to distract from the emotional. Sometimes I need to see the blood. To feel alive. It may not make sense to you. It doesn't make sense to most people unless they are or have been a cutter or were good friends with a cutter and tried to understand it because of that.
So maybe you should all keep your minds a little more open in the future and not judge so quickly when you have no idea what you are talking about.
I am sure this thread will be gone soon, so if anyone feels the need to take this further, let me know. I'm a big girl. I can handle my own without whining to mods and admins to lock and delete threads.
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