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Well, some of you may know from the last thread I made that I have recently moved to Chicago and started an apprenticeship with the IBEW Local 134 of Cook county. Well since then....
I have been in the ER 7 times in three weeks...
Ran completely out of money because of it.....
And have missed enough time from my classes with my apprenticeship that I may end up losing my apprenticeship.
Im not sure what to do now. I have staked everything by moving here and going thru this apprenticeship. I took ALOT of time off my last job last year taking tests, drug screenings, going to orientations, all for almost 8 months last year, and I am on the verge of losing the apprenticeship in the first three weeks of me starting it. I have rent due in a week or so, and almost no money to pay it, my unemployment will be running out soon as well.
I have specialists that cost so much money up front that I can't pay for it without insurance, but other specialists that I have seen in the ER that keep telling me to follow up with them, even though I don't have the time nor money to do it, and yet others that won't even see me if I don't have the money up front.
Im just on the verge of losing everything that I have put on the line for all of this, over something I have no control over at all. Its a depressing situation if you have never been in it. I have no one to help me, a father that thinks I should just move back to Indy and take the first job that is offered to me, for whatever rediculous amount of money they offer per hour. I actually had plans for this career path I chose, I wanted to be a telecommunications contractor or telecom project manager. I wanted to own my own company, have a decent house here in the Chicagoland area, have a decent place for whatever family I may have, and I get so ****ing close, and I get to watch it all slip thru my fingers, like so many other times it has in the past.
There are times I wish I had cancer, at least with cancer I have a degree of knowing what to expect, and planning on it from there. I can't get a straight answer about WHAT is wrong with me, let alone find a treatment out there. It would be nice to have some absolutes in my life for once.
Im living proof that if you work hard, and are dedicated to what you want to do, and you pursue it to the best of your abilities, that there could be something out there could be waiting to **** your life up, and send you on a downward spiral to which you may never recover from. Dedication and hard work are illusions, the only real thing there is out there is luck, so be grateful for what you have, because there is someone out there that worked 100x harder than you to get what you have, and ended up in the ER 7 times instead with a bank account in the red, a broken body, and alone with no drive left in them.
I have been in the ER 7 times in three weeks...
Ran completely out of money because of it.....
And have missed enough time from my classes with my apprenticeship that I may end up losing my apprenticeship.
Im not sure what to do now. I have staked everything by moving here and going thru this apprenticeship. I took ALOT of time off my last job last year taking tests, drug screenings, going to orientations, all for almost 8 months last year, and I am on the verge of losing the apprenticeship in the first three weeks of me starting it. I have rent due in a week or so, and almost no money to pay it, my unemployment will be running out soon as well.
I have specialists that cost so much money up front that I can't pay for it without insurance, but other specialists that I have seen in the ER that keep telling me to follow up with them, even though I don't have the time nor money to do it, and yet others that won't even see me if I don't have the money up front.
Im just on the verge of losing everything that I have put on the line for all of this, over something I have no control over at all. Its a depressing situation if you have never been in it. I have no one to help me, a father that thinks I should just move back to Indy and take the first job that is offered to me, for whatever rediculous amount of money they offer per hour. I actually had plans for this career path I chose, I wanted to be a telecommunications contractor or telecom project manager. I wanted to own my own company, have a decent house here in the Chicagoland area, have a decent place for whatever family I may have, and I get so ****ing close, and I get to watch it all slip thru my fingers, like so many other times it has in the past.
There are times I wish I had cancer, at least with cancer I have a degree of knowing what to expect, and planning on it from there. I can't get a straight answer about WHAT is wrong with me, let alone find a treatment out there. It would be nice to have some absolutes in my life for once.
Im living proof that if you work hard, and are dedicated to what you want to do, and you pursue it to the best of your abilities, that there could be something out there could be waiting to **** your life up, and send you on a downward spiral to which you may never recover from. Dedication and hard work are illusions, the only real thing there is out there is luck, so be grateful for what you have, because there is someone out there that worked 100x harder than you to get what you have, and ended up in the ER 7 times instead with a bank account in the red, a broken body, and alone with no drive left in them.
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