I have modded and hacked PS, PS2, XBOX, Computers, and even cars. I will continue on with modding all these components, to make them faster, stronger, and overall better. However, there is one thing I have always neglected, myself.
Upon buying a digital camera for the Pittsburgh games for lifetime of memories, I saw what I really look like. I didnt really look at the pictures until after "we" were defeated by the Patriots, whole other rant there. Well that following Tuesday January 25, 2005... Going through photos to send to the gang I truely saw what I look like.
I can't believe how bad I let myself go. I mean 5'10", 235 lbs and NOT all muscle. I am in just in complete shock. This really needs to change, for both my physical and mental health. I refuse to become that next steriotypical fat geek. My life I have completely changed before going to Grad School. I changed my outlook on life and all to better myself, become secure with who I am inside. I now have a positive outlook on life. I see the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak. I SEE MYSELF being a success. I never had this confidence before, and now that I have it I refuse to relinquish it. Now seeing the picture's of myself, I see how the years of depression, self doubt, and insecurity has done to me. I let myself be my own destruction. I now REFUSE to let myself fail now that I am so close to my dreams.
I will now go on with what I feel will be MY ULTIMATE MOD, the mod of myself into shape. This is not no New Years resolution, this is my self determination to be a complete success in life. However cliche the phrase, I will not idle stand by, I follow it. My only regret is that I didn't see this earlier. I know it is going to be a difficult path. The differnce between doing this now and not ealier in life is that I KNOW I CAN DO IT. I will change, IT IS ABOUT TIME TO CHANGE. It is something I will be proud of.
I will be keeping weekly updates, A journal I guess. I will have weekly pictures. It is all for myself. I will have a webpage, much better than geocities.
Here is me as of Sunday night.... http://www.geocities.com/jester_13th/steelers008.jpg
Hope you all well help keep me in line [img]graemlins/wavey.gif[/img]
BTW: any suggestions on a great host?
Upon buying a digital camera for the Pittsburgh games for lifetime of memories, I saw what I really look like. I didnt really look at the pictures until after "we" were defeated by the Patriots, whole other rant there. Well that following Tuesday January 25, 2005... Going through photos to send to the gang I truely saw what I look like.
I can't believe how bad I let myself go. I mean 5'10", 235 lbs and NOT all muscle. I am in just in complete shock. This really needs to change, for both my physical and mental health. I refuse to become that next steriotypical fat geek. My life I have completely changed before going to Grad School. I changed my outlook on life and all to better myself, become secure with who I am inside. I now have a positive outlook on life. I see the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak. I SEE MYSELF being a success. I never had this confidence before, and now that I have it I refuse to relinquish it. Now seeing the picture's of myself, I see how the years of depression, self doubt, and insecurity has done to me. I let myself be my own destruction. I now REFUSE to let myself fail now that I am so close to my dreams.
I will now go on with what I feel will be MY ULTIMATE MOD, the mod of myself into shape. This is not no New Years resolution, this is my self determination to be a complete success in life. However cliche the phrase, I will not idle stand by, I follow it. My only regret is that I didn't see this earlier. I know it is going to be a difficult path. The differnce between doing this now and not ealier in life is that I KNOW I CAN DO IT. I will change, IT IS ABOUT TIME TO CHANGE. It is something I will be proud of.
I will be keeping weekly updates, A journal I guess. I will have weekly pictures. It is all for myself. I will have a webpage, much better than geocities.
Here is me as of Sunday night.... http://www.geocities.com/jester_13th/steelers008.jpg
Hope you all well help keep me in line [img]graemlins/wavey.gif[/img]
BTW: any suggestions on a great host?
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